frustrated

Today I am so frustrated. With the office management. It’s been quite a while actually. And it’s usually about my leave application. I have and had to go through so much to get my leave approved that it seem ridiculous at times. I asked around the office what they have to do to get their leave approved. And apparently, nothing. They have to do nothing to get their leave approved. Only send in the leave form. While I have to send a supporting document EVERY.SINGLE.FUCKING.TIME. LIKE WHAT THE HELL???? Go to hospital for my annual appointment also need supporting. Every time la I want to cuti need to have supporting.

So, next week on Saturday and Sunday, I have a test. It’s just a test. Not a final exam or anything. Since my course don’t have a final exam. We have all year assessment that include, quizzes, tests, assignments and presentation. I request for a study leave. Since we are entitled for it. But man, I need supporting for her to approve it!! No, seriously, did she think I’m in primary school that teacher will send letter to parents to inform them about exam?? And which part that I don’t have final exam that you don’t understand woman??

It’s not an official examination. Thus, they are no official announcement about it or anything. Why la this is so hard to understand. I also don’t know. And, and the best part is, since I cannot provide any supporting and in order for her to approved that leave application, I have to show her my result. Which will come out next year la kot.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! Frust gila!  Takpe la. Next sem taknak dah apply study leave. Entitled pun macam tak je. Baik takpayah bagi terus. Konon supportive. Mintak cuti dua hari pun susah. Malas dah. Lepas ni apply je guna annual leave. Habis cerita. Or will it??

what's going on

so far? well, a lot. 

i remember when i was in the midst of researching what course i want to take for my master degree, i stumbled upon this one blog. she 'bragged' about how easy this is. and how she felt so rugi not to do it earlier. and believe it or not, i believe every word that she wrote. sigh....

well, let me tell you the truth. to all who plan to do your master degree part time, here's what you should take note.

1. time is scarce. yes it is. focusing on your work from 9-6 and only have time after that to do work for your study and actually studied for upcoming tests and all, is really not enough. yes i can sleep a bit late. but remember tomorrow you have to wake up as usual to go to work? and the older you are, the more sleep you need! HAHAHAHA!!! and, and, your weekends are no longer yours. especially if you have class started at 8AM and it takes 1 hour for you to reach class. 🙍

2. distraction. i know this should not be an issue. but it is for me! i only have that little time to do all the study matters but oh my god, it is so hard to focus! too many distraction. and i'm not even married yet! kudos to all mom/wife who did their master part time. 

3. lecturers. be prepared to be totally clueless when you finish a class. maybe that's just me. but just be prepared.

but, it's still fun! honestly going to class to learn something new and be totally clueless at the end of the day is fun. having to wake up early to go to class is not really bad. having to sacrifice a thing or two for my education is actually ok. 

i don't hate it all just yet.

knowing that i will gain something bigger after all this excite me. so yeah. may He ease my journey and may He make it easier for me to go through my day.

ini pun one of distraction jugak ni.