Big deal.

I grew up with multiple cases of tonsillitis. Sometime its gone after 2-3 days. Sometime it takes a week or two to be completely healed. Other times, its so worse that it affected my daily life. It also cause me to been admitted to the hospital a few times. Did anybody who makes this such a big deal, took some time to go and see me when I was admitted? Nope. Of course I didn't even hope that they will come. I rather spend that time sleeping than entertaining people. What makes me sad is that, this one person who recently admitted because of high fever and maybe tonsillitis (I don't know because I don't care), suddenly it such a big deal. Hmphhh. Sorry not sorry. Let me just be that cousin who own a motorcycle and won't even bother to go visit. Let me be. I got so many other good things that I can do rather than worrying about what you and your family think about me. In the meantime, please think about what you did. 

The new cleaner.

My office just hired a new cleaner replacing this one Kakak that we all adored so much. That Kakak have to go back home because of her pregnancy. We all love her so much but we cannot do anything. So the company hired a new cleaner to replace her. I was told to guide and monitor her work. Its been over a month. She's slowly getting better. But the thing is, its so slow it makes me very frustrated. I don't know if the fact that she's older than previous Kakak that made her so slow or our previous Kakak set the bar too high for this new lady to catch up. I really hope its the latter. And the new Kakak will get better. 

Why do I need that assurance? Because I am responsible of her work performance. I have to report to the bosses. And most importantly, I want all the normal things that we used to have, will always be there. 

Please pray for Kakak. Amin. 

Manners.

Some people think that they're so great they can make other people do anything that they want. Where are their manners? Didn't they learn it at school? Or they think they are so great they don't need it? 

Bucket List.

I have so many things in my bucket list that I don't know where to start from. I want to further my studies. I want to travel. I want a better job with better salary. I want to be a better daughter to my parents. I got so many more that sometimes I feel like I'm lost. Lost in my own list that I made up without even realizing that I am in charge of that list. I made the list myself. And I should be able to control it. 

So, starting today, I will be in charge of my own list. One thing at a time. Then it should be Ok. 

Leaving Time.

Love this book so much! So much different from the usual storyline. Love it so much that I might read it again in the future. Kudos Jodi Picoult! :)

Stillness.

I love how quiet and still the office is after 6pm. Its so serene. I love it. Especially after spending the day running back and forth to settle all works. I need the quietness for a while. To do my thing. 

I love how I can be just by myself even for a shortwhile. Without talking or even making an effort to be nice to others. 

28th.

I'm officially 28 today. Though I didn't feel like it. Hehe. I do feel younger than my age. No. I'm not in denial. I know that I'm getting older by the day. But I realize that as I'm getting older there are so many things that I have yet to learn. 

For example, my communication skills. I thought that as I got older, it will get better. But oh boy. I was wrong. Very wrong. Age doesn't make it any difference in this case. And that explain why I have so little friends. Hahahah. I'm happy with the little group of friends that I have. I just wish that someday, I will get better in making new friends. 

I also wish that I will not judge people too easily in the future. 

But other than that, I am very happy with my life right now. No clue or sign what so ever when I will be getting married. Thought of that so much given that all my friends are married. But no drastic change on that part of my life yet. Still single. And happy. Really am. 

To future me who are reading this, you are very happy on your 28th birthday. You spend the birthday night and morning with Bebitt. Eat mcd, nasik lemak, nasik kukus ayam berempah. Had a big cup of mocha that you bought in front of stadium slyg. I hope you still happy as I am today. If not, nvm. It will get better. It always will. Love you. 

Escape.

This is where I go to if I need some pick me up. The so called server room. My escape room. The little room that nobody cares about except me. Thank you room. For providing me with some comfort.  

P/s: feeling a bit down today. Hoping that this feeling will go away soon. 

Mental.

Do you ever feel like so mentally exhausting? Like your body can function well and all but your brain just feel so so tired and you don't feel like doing anything at all. I feel exactly like that when meeting with this particular person. The environment is so negative that I just want to get away from it. Gahhhhhhh.